The Month of November (Carissa Lovvorn)

The month of November is inundated with the word gratitude. But what happens when being grateful is difficult?

I’m currently walking through a season of life in which I have no choice but to trust that God’s

thoughts and ways are far greater than my own. These past few years of dealing with recurrent miscarriages, a life-altering injury, and the slow loss of my best friend, mentor, and mother figure as I care for her have taken me to places of extreme sadness, physical pain, and utter loneliness. While I could focus on all the negativity during this time, I can’t help but see the presence of God, even in the darkest moments.

As I navigate this difficult time, I find encouragement in Apostle Paul's example of unwavering faith and contentment in the midst of suffering. Chained in a Roman prison, facing execution, abandoned by many of his friends, and enduring physical suffering, he still found a way to reflect on his spiritual position with gratitude. In his letter to the church in Philippi, he declared, “I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:11–13, NIV).

What an amazing testimony! Not only did Paul find contentment in difficult circumstances, he also encouraged others to practice gratitude in all conditions: “In everything give thanks; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you” (1 Thessalonians 5:18, NKJV).

I would love to tell you that I face every difficult situation life throws at me and, like Paul,

immediately see the good and find contentment. However, I am still learning, and quite frankly, some days I fail at it.

But when I sit quietly and reflect on the many ways God has revealed Himself to me during this difficult season, I can’t help but find gratitude in the silence, gratitude in the lack, and gratitude in the loneliness. Because in those moments, I am reminded that I am relying on Him for my strength and comfort. And in doing so, I am developing an unbreakable connection with my Heavenly Father and strengthening my faith, no matter what may come.

As my relationship with Him deepens, I’m beginning to see how He is using this season to shape my heart. My faith has grown. My love, compassion, and understanding have grown. For these things, I am thankful.

I may never understand the reasons behind every painful season, but I can trust that God will use even these circumstances to draw me closer and equip me to help others draw closer to Him, too.

For that, I am content. For that, I am grateful.

I hope you have wonderful and thankful November!

Blessings, Carissa